Blessed Imbolc to All

I made a promise to the Hearth Mother that I would make at least some effort to do something of value today, for She appreciates nothing like Hard Work. I wrote three poems today, which for me is a deluge. None of them were to Her though, oops! I’ll try to remedy that tonight. Eventually, when I have a good “themed” collection going, I plan to gather them into little hand-bound booklets, probably sometime this year. I’m hoping they will each be dedicated to specific deities, but I may not be that prolific. (These booklets are going to be really cool, just wait.)

For Imbolc every year, besides some general baking, I always try to spend some time spinning, a hobby I don’t get to do as often any more. I have some arthritis in my hands, so my yarn-crafts are only occasional and extremely drawn-out affairs. But since spinning is especially sacred to the Hearth Mother, and other Godesses around this time, I make a special effort to offer this work as a gift of contemplative worship, and later use the yarn in a sacred or magic project – usually practical things like binding herbs or what have you.

There’s a special anecdote, though, that goes with my holiday spinning. Several years ago (six?) I spent a lot of time walking, many miles a day. I’m a big fan of thrift shops, so I was a regular at the Goodwill about 2 miles from my home at the time. One particular walk, I was delighted to discover two lovely drop-spindles in perfect condition for something like $10, and these models were not cheap when new. Guess what day I happened to be taking that walk?? Yes, Imbolc.

Hail to the Hearth Mother, everlasting,
Her head shall ever be crowned in gold, 
may She purify my heart as would the flame!

Sooo one thing I haven’t had the chance to go into yet is the nature of my “pantheon”, which is unfortunately a rather essential topic in my writings here. I want to do that before I start getting specific on each Deity, which is why I’m kind of skirting around this Holyday in this post. I’m going to go work on that post right now, which is partway finished and sitting in my drafts, and maybe I’ll have it up sometime within, oh, the next century.

(I’m also avoiding political talk here. I promise I cannot shut up about it elsewhere.)

Edit 2/4/17: I’ve finished another post, but I’m scheduling it to post next Thursday, on 2/9. No sense in posting in sudden deluges separated by vast droughts. 



Yes, hello, I’m still alive. 2016 was a totally shitty year, wasn’t it? I’ve been super busy with both the normal holidays and my Total Life Overhaul, impending my return to college next week. A half-apology for the blog, but that’s life.

A huge part of my future degree is writing. In fact, that’s most of it. As part of this, I’m going to be slowly developing a more regular writing practice, and this blog is going to play a part in it. So I hope to complete all my “Drafts” sometime in the next few months as I get settled into a new routine.

I’ve also started working on several “Online Shrines” to some of my particular Deities. The first is to Iðunn, who I am close to and who I think is vastly underappreciated! I’ll be posting these as I collect and construct them.

Other than that, I hope everyone had a blessed Winter holiday to recoup from the mess of 2016.

Oh, and today is my birthday. I’m 33 today. That’s a thing.

Minor Update/Hiatus

Hello folks, just wanted to give a quick update. I currently have no less than 10 half-written posts saved to my Drafts, waiting to be finished. However, I’m also working 60-hour weeks, with a 1.5 hour drive to get there, plus dealing with a work-related injury and the resulting doctors and paperwork, AND I’m doing the prep-work to go back to college this Winter…. Suffice to say, I’m busy.

So I’m still here, but on a mini-hiatus for the next week or two. There’s all kinds of stuff coming up: lots of divination, introspection, exploring topics like monasticism and the nature of the Gods, and current events – which is to say, personal events in my spiritual life. I’ll be back.

Review: Poseidon of the Ponds

Here’s a little thing I didn’t plan to do, but I think it’s very important we support the work of other folks who do the work of the Gods. So I’m already putting aside my “no linking to others” to do a little ebook review. (Though this will probably be more of a “personal tangent” than a review….) (Did I do this instead of completing the prayer I was supposed to finish? Oops.)

Poseidon of the Ponds caught my attention since I’m also working on a “liturgical calendar” for myself and my Gods. This small eBook is the second part of a series where the author, Jolene Dawe, a 20-year dedicant of Poseidon talks about the development process of her personal celebrations. As she explains, this isn’t a “how-to manual”, but is rather more a memoir that gives a glimpse into her personal practice and is origins.

With polytheists, it seems, no two practices are identical. I would argue it’s because most(?) of us are trying to develop a “relationship” with the Gods. There is a lot of tailoring that needs to be done for individual daily devotion, because while the basic methods are generally the same (“functional polytheism”?) the specific words, acts, and “aesthetic” are often unique. Even if someone is using words that another person wrote, those words are selected for a personal reason – because they are the best for representing symbolically what the ritual means to the devotee.

One excellent point Dawe brings up, which is something near and dear to me, is the act of being seen. I have a weird struggle with being observed in relation to Pagan/Polytheist matters, a lingering fear of being seen as “crazy” or “stupid”. This would come as a surprise to folks who know me IRL, because I’m not someone who generally gives a Damn for other people’s blockhead opinions (to the extent I’m pretty oblivious to them even looking). The solution to this fear is always get out there and do it anyway, and to do it like you mean it, but I bet it’s a struggle a lot of us have. Personally, some this is linked to group-dynamic, and the implication that because we are a minority religion we are not “valid”. You don’t look crazy if everybody else is doing it too. Just something to think about.

Another personal tidbit I enjoyed is that the Poseidon of the Ponds ritual looks an awful lot like the basic animistic rituals I used to do “on-the-fly” when I lived in the woods instead of the city. At the time I was frustrated with the sort of “aimlessness” of my practice, but on the flip side, I felt so much healthier and more connected to the vaettir and the land. I lost a lot of this when I moved to a place I could no longer just open my door into nature, and it’s hurt me in ways I never thought would be so deep. The ebook talks about the author’s sense of disconnect from Poseidon when she moved to an area where there was less water and summer drought. How do you feel the presence of a water god when there is no water? It’s definitely something I relate to – and Dawe’s resulting ritual reveals a wonderful truth concerning location and our Gods.

(Without going into detail, I’m actually working on making major life-changes right now, because this is such an important aspect of who I am. I hope to say Goodbye City, Hello Forest sometime soon. Eventually.)

I too struggled to follow another tradition’s calendar, though I do follow the general Wheel of the Year. There are always Gods I don’t have connection with, and always Gods that are conspicuously absent. I do try to align some of my festivals/rituals with historical dates or those of modern traditions, because I feel having a “community” aspect is important. (I’ll get more into this once I finish and post about the actual calendar.)

However, Poseidon of the Ponds really reminded me of the beauty that comes from insight, the natural organic process of interpreting the Mysteries of the land. Like, of course there would be a ritual recognizing of the necessity of water during a parched drought period! How utterly logical and natural. I don’t work with Poseidon-by-name, but Dawe’s ritual is an excellent inspiration to develop poignant celebrations to any God of Waters, including my own. Ponds makes it clear that if we’re limiting ourselves to the obvious (Poseidon=ocean, no ocean=no Poseidon) then we’re completely missing the point.

It’s also a great reminder to stop drowning myself in intellectual “research” in hopes of finding “true” answers! The answers are with the Gods. The answers are in the practice, and are revealed through the exposure of the link between us and Them. One of the purposes of ritual, for me, is to recognize the link between ourselves, the Gods, and the natural world, in concert with each other, not separate, intrinsically bound. I think Poseidon of the Ponds is a great example of this healthy and clear mindview.

I’m looking forward to supporting more of Dawe’s work, once I have more than 98 cents in my Paypal account…..

You can purchase Poseidon of the Ponds on the author’s Esty or on Amazon. Her blog post about it is here on Strip Me Back to the Bone, and there is also a bog specifically for The Poseidon Liturgical Year Project.

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Oh, boy. I typed a very long introduction post, and then needed to sit on it, finished but un-posted, for about a week. I’ve wanted to start a blog to track my spiritual journey for ohhh a long time, but I’m always reluctant to share something so personal and private.I end up second-guessing it and getting uncomfortable and end up taking the safer path of privacy.

However I recently read a blog post by a polytheist blogger who thinks that we early members of the “polytheist revival” should be sharing our trials and tribulations for future people, so I am hesitantly trying to blog again. There is a really big struggle in my heart against boxes and labels though, and in a lot of ways that makes this post the hardest one of all. I am worried that if I try to describe myself and what I’m doing, it will lock me down into a category the readership preconceived, starting me off with a load of baggage instead of starting fresh. Unfortunately that isn’t inaccurate, I suppose, since nothing happens in a vacuum. It’s frustrating that people don’t read in “good faith” any more (if they ever did).

So this post is a boring post which will give some indication of what I’m doing, sort of. I’m going to be somewhat vague on details, because I’m going to explore topics more in-depth in future posts. As I mentioned above, I haven’t quite decided on the balance of important-detail versus invasive-detail.

First, a bit about the blog. A lot of this stuff will be moved to the “about” page shortly. I am not currently part of any pagan/heathen group, at all, and I’m not even really friends with any pagans except distant acquaintances. I don’t want to imply I am directly part of any group, even if there are groups of people I respect or follow. There is a loose network of people who are trying to revive and reconstruct pre-Christian polytheistic practices of European peoples. (And some from other areas and cultures.) I am basically a part of this unofficial “group”. I want to share my personal religious experiences as “research” to help others who are part of this “project”.

Next, about my religious practice. Please note the use of lower-case terms: I don’t really have a Capital Letter name for my religion. Here are some aspects:

  • nature worship: One aspect of “animism”, which is recognizing and worshiping the spirit in non-human beings like plants and animals and the sacred in natural phenomenon.
  • spirit interaction: Respect for and communication with non-corporeal beings. This includes “faeries” and their ilk, ghosts, and so on. Sometimes also called “animism”.
  • veneration of the dead: Honoring and communicating with one’s ancestors.
  • polytheism: The worship of many (literal) deities. For me, my polytheism extends from my animism, and I believe the Gods are not “creator gods”, but are enlightened spirit-beings who share the Earth with us. (If you view them differently that is totally acceptable and you’re welcome here.) Like all beings, human, animal, plant, and spirit, I want the Gods to live in harmony as our kith and kin. (More on the Gods later.)
  • witchcraft: I take a secular view on most “magic”. However, it can be used as a great tool in worship and communication with Gods and spirits. Some of this falls under the “traditional European witchcraft” header (as opposed to something more like “Western esoteric occult”), but there are lots of labels you could apply I’m sure. Sacred herbs are also important to me, along with “wildcraft”.
  • historically-inspired: My ancestors hailed from several areas of Europe and Scandinavia. I have tried to use a fairly logical process for my research and incorporation into my practice over the years, similar to “reconstructionist” and “revivalist” methods. Firstly, I go directly to the specific cultures from which my ancestors came from and use the lore and archeological record. I start with the most recent places my family came from (France, Norway, and the UK), and if there are elements missing in practice (heavily true for Gaul for example) then I branch out to farther-distant European practices (I have ancestry from groups as far as Greece, the Baltics, and the Iberian peninsula. It is basically all of Europe.) Please note I am not “folkish”, I do not care about your ancestry, only your sincerity.
  • personal experience: UPG is very much sneered at*, but if “shopping” through religions is a shallow and insincere behavior, then what is the sincere way to develop our own? In established religions there is a personal development one achieves with regular practice, and my religion is no different.
  • devotional practice: I have a high respect for regular, active, personal practice. Celebrating just the festivals and going to cons isn’t a religion, it’s a community activity. Dabbling in magic spells isn’t a religion, it’s a hobby. Writing endless blogs on your theological hypotheses isn’t religion either, it’s philosophizing (or mental masturbation). For me, there’s a greater element of living one’s religion which is deeper, and which is the key to religion. You aren’t what you say you are; you are what you do.

I’m sure I’ll be touching on a lot of the details of those topics, but I really hope I won’t have to go into boring explanations of all of them. Some of that shit is 101.

Right now, and what I’ll be blogging about in the near future, I’m working on a few different projects.

  •  I’ve been setting up a personal calendar of devotional practice, which rotates on a lunar cycle. I’ve been trying to develop a more regular habit of worship, and specific practice, as opposed to just daily-but-random prayers and offerings to gods and spirits. This also involves writing very skeleton rituals for each devotion – I prefer to do mine from scratch. Yes, it’s reinventing the wheel a bit, but it feels more genuine. I hope to share some interesting results of this.
  • I’m also working on a bigger, somewhat private ritual, involving a particular Goddess. Not a dedication per se, but it is very personal and private and I haven’t decided how much I want to share yet beyond a vague report. Sooo this is a cryptic teaser!
  • I’m working on several devotional creative projects, mostly paintings of Deity iconography. I’m very slow at them though because my free time for long sit-downs is limited. I’ll try to share them whenever I’m finished.
  • I’m taking a class on Divination. It is the first pagan/magic/whatever class I’ve ever participated in. I have always done a “secular” form of divination, mostly with tarot, and I’d like to start using it as a tool of communication and clarification with my Gods. We started this week, so I’ll be reporting on my progress as it develops (or rather, the positive outcome of my newly learned skills, I hope).

I’m sure I’m doing a million other things too. I’m growing several sacred herbs, but gardening is sort of a non-stop year-round activity.

So that’s a not-so-brief introduction. In one of my next posts I’ll maybe get more into what my actual religion looks like. There’s also a couple of “blog policy” and “community” things that I want to touch on immediately (in the hopes that I’ll never have to address them ever again). This blog’s future is kind of a grab-bag for now.

* (I think some of the anti-UPG attitude stems from a fear of a lack of an authority figure. We are very used to having authority figures to point to in our religious culture. Even if you don’t believe the Gods are real and consider them “archetypes”, are you just going to sit there and believe whatever a book by Jung tells you, or are you going to try to experience how they relate to you as an individual? Come on.)